7 posts tagged “my life”

19th Feb 09

Let me tell you what I do

Every day in my life is different and that's why I love what I do, it can be full of surprises. I work for the best employers in the Universe, being a spiritualist/medium/psychic "Spirit" and I never know, who or what they are going to bring to me, either to show or teach me something or for me to help and pass on something that will help another. At the moment I am mostly doing this in my writing, whether its through my books or via my blogs. I am also a counsellor and I spend a great deal of my day listening to others. I cant always offer anything practically but I can listen and this is what counselling is all about. Its not about telling the person or client what to do, its just about making the client realise, they have had their own solutions to their problems all along, and they just simply weren't aware of it. One of the joys of being a Medium is no matter how dark things can become, when things are at their darkest, like the time before dawn, something will raise you to such joy. So I love my job whether it is to inspire or to listen, there is always an answer, that silver lining inside every black cloud

This morning me and Josh

Actually they've posted the wrong way round lol but nevermind there is me this morning, babysitting for Stephana lol, busy playing and crawling around the floor acting the fool with Joshy's cars on this rug with roads on it and what is he doing? well watching the men and motor channel on TV lol. I swear this baby is so strange lol he gets excited at looking at car engines lol

Hear Me

Hear me whisper softly
In the breeze
In the rustling of the trees
I am watching
Listening
Feel me gently touch
Your cheek
I am there
Loving and giving always
Never asking or taking
I give my love unselfishly
Nor do I judge
Or question
For who am I to do so
When I love
I do so from the heart
Fully and completely
Such a risk
I will always take
For such a love is true
All I ask in return
Is truth and honesty
No matter if it hurts
And makes me cry
For I give my love
Unconditionally
And when I love
I give my heart
And my soul

MPB (c)

'Soul's Song'

The sweet song my soul sings
Of  love and emotion so true
Aches when I think of you
Each waking second that is past
Each moment spent feels like the last
And yet with quiet trepidation
I  am flung into this whirlwind
Of doubt and hesitation
But would I go or try
To run, to escape, I think not
For love it gives both pain and pleasure
For all the sorrow that this brings
The joy is multiplied
For one sweet word said from you
Heals my soul and happiness it sings

MPB (c)

To Be Me

Oh they are so familiar they feel like a faithful friend
Only they are not, they will haunt me to the end
I want to scream and scream to ease my pain inside
An open wound a festering sore an ache deep in my heart
All I ever wanted in my life was to be like other people
To feel the things that they feel and live the way they do
Instead of this curse of sensitivity and the aches of others

Heavy on my heart
How much longer do I have to bear these trials
And with time, they get tougher
I cannot see the sense in this, why do I feel so alone
Few understand what it is like,
They call it a gift, is it?

If only they really knew how sharp this double edged blade is
And the wounds it causes, I bleed, like any other, perhaps more than most
The Blade I feel in my back, I feel more than most, when I bleed, I bleed
And why I do not understand, all I've ever wanted was to be a good friend
To pass on love to others

When I am happy I am ecstatic, everything is magnified
Everything times a hundred, a thousand
When I am sad I reach the darkest chambers of the endless dungeons
I am told this is for a reason
I am told this is so I can pick up the finest vibration
I am told 'I so want to be like you'
But would you, truly
To feel the b lade twisting in your heart,
That very same blade that can raise you triumphantly to the highest mountain
and with one fell cutting swoop, take you down
So low you think- can I make it?

And just when you reach that point when there is no turning back
You feel the light fill your soul a joy that makes you feel intoxicated and you reach the highest point ever
I have to remember and saviour it and relish the moment
And bask in all its golden glory, knowing at any moment
It will be taken away
And you want to be like me you say
You would not
If you wore my shoes
And trod that well worn path I know- oh so well

Why is it I want to be normal
And you want to be me?
I know I am a fragile soul
I know its meant to be
I believe I must have chosen this
I am told
This is what it is to be me

MPB(c)

Looking ok for ???? right? lol Guess lol?

Oh lol you can see I have something to smile about!

Lol this is down to two certain people and one very special person in particular "Ti amo" lol you know who you are lol!


Also a very special mention to my grandma who looks out for me I just love her to bits and my enthousiasm and faith in what I do is all down to this very special lady and all her 'friends' for all the special work they have done recently. I owe you guys lol! and I know you wont let me forget it lol! Yes I know I work for you lol! (ps. it was her that changed the name lol its back now lol her little idea of a joke lol!)


(special mention to my technitian whom I trained of course lol)