6 posts tagged “me”

A Silver Lining

Don't you often wonder how you arrived at where you are in life? You think if only I had done this, or studied that, or perhaps I should have taken that other job instead of that one, may be not married that guy/girl!

I was pondering over these thoughts at breakfast this morning, I especially think about things when I am feeling a bit down and then I was inspired to think latteraly instead of litterly. I think well if I hadn't made that choice where would I be today. Should I have pursued a career in the art world; when I was at school from the age of 5 years all I wanted to do was become an artist and I was single-minded enough to pursue this all the way through my schooling, went to art school, and then suddenly one day I felt this was not what I wanted, I wanted to do nursing instead. Now I never did any sciences at school until my final year when I did a short course in biology to help me understand the human body to enable me to draw it better and now here I was spending all this time concentrating on art and now thats not what I wanted.

So I made the change, I had to learn total new subjects, do science and a bit of maths (WHICH I HATE LOL) I was quite happy the art came in handy for drawing diagrams did a good trade at nursing college drawing diagrams for other nurses. And then some difficult personal problems came about and I left nursing and sort of drifted into Medical Secretarial College, which I excelled at, funnily enough when I started nurse training I did a short course in touch typing to help me type up my lecture notes, so I had a head start and the nursing was useful as I knew and could spell all the terminology, and when I was working at the Hospital I could liase easily with the Medical staff and could organise all the clinics easily and quicker than any other medical secretary as I could work unaided and had good rapport with medical staff and patients alike.

My whole life went along this way making this choice because circumstances at the time deemed it necessary almost as if an inner voice was leading me along a pathway. How I got into complementary medicine was a direct result of orthodox medicine failing to help with an allergy I had, I began to experiment on myself firstly with homoeopathy and graduated to family and friends with good results and I branched out to herbal and essential oils, all of this long before it was fashionable, and yes I was ridiculed and laughed at, at the time. Again my previous life choices helped me with this route.

I spent several years, actually many lol studying courses, writing dissertations on a vast array of complementary therapies, until I'd covered about every eventuality and thought how can I best put these into practise to help others. So to get my foot in the door, as at this time complementary therapies were not terribly recognised within the medical profession, I decided to train as a beauty therapist, to introduce my therapies into treatments, which I did, and my artistic background helped with the make up. Finally I had this need to pass on my knowledge to others I wanted people out there to know just what complementary therapies could do. I volunteered working at my Local Hospital, which was also a teaching hospital, working in the field of pallative care, this was easy for me due to my nursing background. The consultants at the hospital were enlightened to the effects of complementary medicine and saw the advantages. You'll note I say complementary and not alternative, as these therapies should be complementary to orthodox and not as an alternative.

I further went on to teach both beauty therapy and a vast array of assorted complementary therapies intoducing them for the first time at the only International Examination Therapy College in Scotland, and I was so proud to see my therapists go to work all over the world knowing I passed on a little bit of what I myself have learned.

What I am trying to say here in a very long-winded way is 'isn't it amazing where we end up' how if we hadn't done this course or made this choice, our lives would be so different. Think of all the positives we have, for example if we hadn't married that guy, would we have the beautiful children we have now, would we have met the wonderful guy we have now, had it not been we were unhappy with our ex's.

It's easy to overlook the 'Silver lining' in every grey rain cloud, but there is one there and if we ponder for a while you will see it. Everything we do is for a reason, it takes us on our journey of life's lessons and as a result we grow the wiser, the more knowlegedable and stronger as a direct result and this in turn enables us to give and show empathy and to help others going through similar circumstances.

I hope this blog in turn will at least help someone to see that 'Silver Lining"

MPB (c)

As was before

Please listen to the music of "Bliss" as you read this. It is a most soul touching ethereal track and in my opinion so beautiful for someone you are in love with to make love to enjoy......

Blending as one

Fused together

I desire

To create that beauty

As was before

That touching

Of lips

Of bodies

Of hearts

Of souls

Burning

As one Twin flame

As was before

As is destiny

I want

I love you


MPB (c)

Let me

Let me pull you close
Let me taste your honeyed lips
Let my tongue entwine around yours
Let me die in your arms
Such a beautiful death
As you take me to Paradise

MPB (c)

My Heart, it is Open

I was always told by my mentors and tutors in Mediumship to follow my heart, to never be afraid in doing so, to show humility. I continued this advice with my own students in Mediumship. You see in listening to your heart you are guided to what is right, to what is true. Be honest with yourself and listen to what it is telling you. This is your intuition, that knowning, that gut feeling. If I can give one bit of advice before I die it is this-

"Always listen to your heart it speaks the truth, you will hear it quite clearly if you still your mind, it knows the correct answer for YOU. Never doubt it and never be afraid to follow it, you are being guided, by your 'Higherself', your own spirit and that of your guides who love you. Do this and you will be following your true pathway in life"

Its not always an easy path it can be so damm hard at times and it can be periously frightening but beleive it or not it is the path YOU have chosen in order to progress.

People have often said to me, youre crazy, why do you live this way. I live this way because I know no other I have to live by what is right, by what I feel my spirit is telling me and by what I feel my spirit guides advise me. For those of you who dont know; I am not going through the best of times right this moment. Sometimes I put on a brave face, but the truth I am frightened, I am anxious and I am worried and you know all I am guilty of is this; doing my best to help others and I help others because it makes me feel good inside and that is enough reward for me to see others do well and progress.

I have no hate in my heart, that is not me. Its risky sometimes, but we have to take a chance, we cannot wrap ourselves up in cottonwool. We take risks everyday we venture out into the world everytime we get behind the wheel of a car, everytime we cross a road. We never know what is in store for us whilst we are here, that memory of our planned lessons is wiped from us else we would stay in our comfort zone and then we'd not gain our aspirations and achievements.

You know each lifetime is a short one in the scale of things, in this vast Cosmos, though when we are going through our darkest days it doesn't feel this way. And because of this never be afraid to tell someone how much you love them, never be afraid to tell you care, never be afraid to say your feelings and never be afraid to say that you,re sorry. We never know what is around that corner in life, we never know when our loved ones will be taken from us, when it is their time to go to the other side. I don't mean this to be morbid, but this is life, don't live your life full of regrets. Listen to your heart and it will help you, that is your link with spirit, with love, with God and the Universe.

You know I genuinely do love people unconditionally I have no right to criticise another when I have not walked that mile in their shoes, I have no right to judge another when I have not felt anothers feelings and know not their circumstances. I am the first to admit I can be ignorant, and please forgive me.

But I am human with human faults and failings and sometimes I dont always see what I should, sometimes I need to have the film removed from my eyes, so don't be afraid to tell me, in order that I learn and grow. I am not making excuses but sometimes I give in to my fears and forgive me if I should appear selfish I dont mean to but my anxieties are a bit much to bear right now and I feel a bit like a ship sailing on the ocean with no rudder to guide me and for that I am sorry.

I am not afraid to admit I am not perfect but I am trying to aspire to be a better person. Please don't be afraid to tell me when I am wrong so that I will learn from my mistakes.

So I speak from my heart and sometimes listening to the that truth is scary and you feel vulnerable and right now I feel like this and I dont want to be, inside I am frightened and I am truly sorry.

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Everybody is capable with working on a psychic level, it is our sixth sense. When man was evolving it was this special sense, that kept us safe, it was an inner knowing, a gut feeling that helped protect us and survive danger. Animals still use this sense, you might like think of it as being akin to instinct.

The psychic level is our link with 'the ethos', the Universe, where all knowlege can be sought.
It is perfectly possible to develop this ability, through finding a development class or from various techniques and exercises that can be found in suitable reading literature. Some people are naturally good psychics and it is perfectly possible to develop naturally. However this can be frightening for some, in which case a development class is the best option where the student will be under the tutelage of an experienced medium.

So just what is psychic energy, it is an energy lower than that of spiritual energy but it gives us insight and ability to gain knowledge from the past, present and future. We can do this by linking in to the universe, where the answers we are seeking to anything can be found. We do this by using our subconscious mind, the same part of the brain that is active when we are dreaming or under hypnosis. Our subconscious mind absorbs every piece of information given to us, every thought, every event in our present life and those we had before. The trouble is gaining access to this information, it is a skill, and like all skills can be developed.

Ah! the future, you say, that sounds interesting, and who on earth doesnt want to know at some point in their lives, what will befall them, whether it is, 'Will I pass this exam?', 'Will I get the job?' or 'When will I move house?' Threin lies the problem. It is truely impossible to truely predict the future acuately, we have all been issued with 'Free Will', nothing is written in stone, so it can only be a guide, as we all have the ability to make our own futures and life is what you make it.

So What is Mediumship?

The word 'medium' means a vessel, litterally. Mediums have the ability to link with spirit and communicate with them. When the physical body dies, the mind lives on, it is our mind that is our soul, our spirit. The term 'ghosts' are not spirit at all, a ghost is akin to a tape recording the vibrations of that person, and generally the recording is deposited and left behind after a particuarly traumic event in that person's life whilst they were here on earth. The event was so traumatic as to have caused immense distress to that person, all the emotions, feelings and mental anquish made a mark on where these strong emotions were experienced. Generally the so called 'ghost' follows the same pattern, an aniversary of the sighting might be experienced on the same date year after year for example. It is impossible to communicate with a ghost as it is a 'recording' and not a spirit.

So the spirit is the mind energy of someone who was once alive at sometime on earth, and the only difference now is they dont have a physical body. We as humans on earth just now are spirit in a human body that is the only difference.

Mediumship is not something that can be acquired through attending a course like psychic ability, it is a gift given to us by the 'Godhead' to be utilised for the highest good for mankind.

Everything on earth and in 'heaven' has a vibration, an energy, mediums have the ability to 'tune in' to this vibration and interpretate it; a bit like turning the tuning dial on a radio to locate a station. After all each radio station has its own wave length and by turning the tuning dial we locate another channel. We know that sound waves exist, we cannot see them, but we know they are there for when we turn on the TV or radio, they are responsible for enabling us to watch and listen to our favourite program. This is exactly what a medium is, we have been gifted this 'tuning dial' that is all.

So when someone passes over, I prefer this term to death, it is only the physical human body that perishes, the person's mind still exists, with all the personality and foibles that made that person who they are, their character. Mediums therefore have the ability to tune into each souls vibration and pick up messages for their loved ones they left behind when their physical body perished.

Mediums are also psychic as spiritual vibrations resonate at a higher frequency than that of the psychic so have the ability to work on both levels. A medium cannot conjure up spirit, The link between spirit and those on earth is love and that bond can never be broken and lives on for all eternity. So all the medium can do is to ask for those loved ones to come forward if they have any messages of love to gift for those they have left behind on earth.

Most of the work a medium does is to provide survival evidence. 'Survival' evidence is knowledge that cannot be gained by the medium themselves about the person they are giving a sitting to, it is generally only something that the sitter would know, and often can only be confirmed by another relative, proof that their loved ones in spirit exist. Mediums are not there to foretell the future, the loved ones in spirit may well give a little informatin purely as proof of survival and as long as it did not hinder any progress in life for the sitter. And remember if you didnt take advice from 'Grandad' when he was alive you dont have to now he's passed over, he still has exactly the same personality and character as he did when he was' here'.

So how do mediums communicate with spirit, we do this with our minds, to be totally honest I have had this ability for as long as I can remember, and truthfully I really dont know, but I have over the years been able to recognise various sensations, that alert me that spirit are around, sensations like differences in temperature, tingling etc.

Mediums communicate in different ways, sometimes through 'clairvoyance' which means clear seeing, where the medium actually sees the spirit, now this can be in one of two ways or even both, where the medium sees the spirit as if looking at someone in real life, in the physical, the spirit may even be transparent or in their minds eye, this is known as 'Mental Mediumship'. Personally myself I see spirit in both these ways.

In 'clairaudience', this means hearing, now this can be actually hearing a voice that you is not your own, or it can sound like your own, but its not your thoughts, and dont worry, I am quite sane lol!

In 'clairsentience', this is feeling, sensing, the spirit, in this the medium senses the emotions, mental state of the spirit, almost as if the spirit imposes their themslves over you.

Most mediums use one or two of these abilities, myself I combine all three, when I link with them, this enables me to experience all their emotions, see what they looked like and hear what they are saying.

Now as I've said everything in the universe has its own vibration, Earth having the lowest in spiritual terms. After Earth comes the Astral realm, it is on this realm that we travel when we dream, its not unusual to see friends etc, in dreamstate, after all they will be travelling this realm too at night lol. It is on this realm where lower Elementals reside, i.e. wood nymphs, nature spirits, elves and fairies amongst others, and as often as in the case spirit who are trapped unable to move onalso reside in this vibration. this is the same vibration used in psychic work. There are several spiritual realms each having a different vibration, with the most Celestial where the realms of the Angels are.

When the medium links with spirit, he or she has the ability to raise their own vibration that bit higher, loved ones in spirit who are around us at a given time, whether it is to help their loved ones on earth or sometimes it is an aneversary of their passing, will have lowered their vibration and the medium is then able to pick up these vibrations and interpretate them. Unfortunately for the medium, it is not so easy and difficult to maintain this link continuously, hence some information may be lost, complete names for example and sentences to explain: 'the fat black cat sat on the red mat', what the medium might hear because of the fluctuating vibration would be: 'the back sat on mat', hence some information is lost.

For some reason spirit sometimes work with a type of shorthand i.e. symbols, these symbols have to be and worked out by the medium for eample to me, seeing a ring might mean a marraige or partnership, it might mean something differently entirely to another medium, we each have our own, it is a way of communicating at a fast vibrational level. When messages from spirit come in to the medium's mind the arrive very fast and to help the medium 'catch' and interpretate these messages quickly the shorthand helps speed up the process.

One of the most acurate ways of obtaining information from spirit is by doing absent readings, here the sitter is not present and the medium can link in with the sitter either by thinking about them or by viewing a photograph, sometimes an example of handwriting is useful. In this method the medium will ask any spirit links to come forward with any messages for the sitter. This is a particuarly acurate method, for the medium cannot read the sitter's body language or by careful questioning gleam any information from the sitter as they are absent, many mediums work best in this area and each medium will eventually find a method suitable for them.

I myself personally like to work with Tarot, this works on the psychic level first of all, and in doing his gives an insight to the sitter's past, present and future, for all that can be picked up from the sitter's auric field: and then I raise the vibration to link with spirit, to bring forward any messages from the spirit realms. With regard to the information from the tarot or any other Mantic tool ( A mantic tool is any form of divination aid such as tarot, crystals, crystal ball, angel cards, tea leaves any sort of aid that helps aid the psychic to use as a tool to latch on to the unique vibration of the sitter. The hand of the sitter is a mantic tool in palm reading) nothing is written in stone, God and the Universe gave us 'Free will'

Before we incarnate as spirit in a human body, for that is what we are whilst on earth, we have some sort of basic plan in mind. We have a goal, a series of lessons we have choosen for ourselves to experience and learn, these lessons may be such as humility, compassion, kindness, sorrow, pain and suffering, for in experiencing these emotions and experiences, we develop empathy and understanding for our fellow humans on earth. Each time we go through these experiences, we become more spiritual and closer to God. But we are never left on our own to go through life's traumas, we have our friends and guides in spirit who give us support to undergo these tasks. Sometimes it feels as if we are all alone and this is because of guides have to stand back to let us experience pain and suffering, for only by undertaking these challenges we learn and grown strong. They never allow us to suffer so much that we cannot bear it, we have chosen these experiences for ourselves, so we are responsible for our own spiritual development. They are there to guide and support us in our 'School on earth'. Why is it we never remember what we planned before we came here? Well that is because if we knew what was before us would we want to; I think not!

Often we incarnate in the same soul groups, the soul is neither male nor female, and we choose which sex we will be to experience life and views from that perspective. Sometimes in that soul group we may be the father of the son who was the father in the last incarnation to experience life from both sides to gain empathy and understanding. We tend to incarnate in groups so that we learn from one another, and the power of this in action is that we are often drawn to particular people in our lives here. We are often drawn to these souls, on meeting these people we instantly feel a bond, not necessarily of physical attraction, but we feel some sort of unseen force bond at work, for we had planned this meeting before we came here, and we recognise one another on a subconscious level. Remember though it is up to us whether we choose whether to go through the experience, but generally if we delay the process, we will often have to relive these experiences at a later date or anothere life, for we know instinctively what is best for us. We choose to do this because we have a common goal we wish to grow closer to God and the Universe.

Spiritual love is the purest love of all, it has no conditions, it does not judge, it has no limits and never ends. It conquers all that is evil and bad in this world and removes all pain. Our common goal is to grow in spirit, and our loved ones in spirit are always there supporting and sending us their love. Mediumship is a gift bestowed upon us to help mankind in order that we can feel the touch of spirit from beyond, to support and teach us and keep us on our chosen path, our path to God.

DREAM LIGHT
Dream light, shine for me
Dream light, do not distort
Dream light, are you real?
Must I follow?
Guide me to the far, far, land.

LET ME NOT LOSE IT
Let me gain wisdom--
And I don't want to lose it
Let me stand strong, tall and wise
Let me not be a broken arrow,
A broken sword, a broken dagger,
Let me not wallow in despair
Let me not lose it.

The strongest part of my heart
The strongest part of my will

Let me not be a weakened soul,
Left to whimper--
To shed deep tears down yonder stream
Let me not fall, and lay down and weep
Let me gain wisdom Let me not lose it.

Let me over come obstacles
Let me rise up to see the dawn of a new day
Let me not sleep, let me shine among the great
And let me be wise always
Let me not lose it.

. MPB (c)