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I felt so alone and let down, 2007
had been a tough year. I turned inwards looking for answers, I hadn’t done
anything wrong all I had done was love a man who had suddenly breezed into my
life, who had shown me how to love again. Not only that he had taught me to
love so deeply as to be unconditional. Had I not met him then I guess I would
not have developed my writing. He inspired and brought out of me, words in my
heart I never knew I had. I loved that man so deep so spiritually in a way I
never knew it was possible.
CLOSURE
You never did give me that finality
That proper end to love's fragility
You left me hanging in some kind of time warped limbo
Unable to go back, to stay the same or just go
I wanted answers, you refused to give
Or talk when all I'd done, was give
You owed me that, at the very least
All I'd done, everything for you, to please
I'm still here in this position
Like the proverbial 'Hanging man' in Tarot's supposition
what did I do to you so very bad?
You never really answered, but left me in a state of sad
To punish me for all lives ills and loves in justices past
It's not my fault your relationship of past didn't last
Why tar me with that same brush and category
I know you hurt of old and for that I'm sorry
But that is down to YOUR experiences
And nothing to do with this love's consequences
In your heart of old you know its true
I am me, not your past love who really hurt you
You never did give me closure when all I'd done was love you
MPB (c)
We have to go through adversity to learn. We have to experience and learn from making mistakes, so that we will learn from them. Sometimes we have to step back and let those we love the most mess up, such is life, but we have to do this even though it may be painful to stand on the sidelines and watch.
When you care and love someone unconditionally, you have no preconditions, no judgments. You are simply there to pick up the pieces if needed. That’s what true friends and lovers do, similarly a good counsellor does not offer opinions or suggestions but makes the recipient aware of their choices nothing more, You have to just stand back and let them learn for themselves and if they make mistakes, let them, its the only way they will learn. As much as we love our friends dearly, you have to love them enough to let them go. If they love you, they will come back because they want to be there, but if you step in and try to foist opinions and your beliefs, you will create alienation, you have to let souls grow, let them mature, develop at their own rate, and not try to hurry what is their life s journey and not ours
I hope one day in another life time, in another place we will meet again in fact I know we will and I wonder what the challenges will be that time around. Although I am sad he left me a gift, he touched my soul, with soul love and for that I can never hate him, but will always love him Unconditionally.
THIS JOURNEY OF SOULS
I know you are there
You are in my heart
Entwined in my soul
Though now apart
But joined at the hip
Part of the whole
Deep in my heart
Deep in my soul
I feel your eyes
They burn right through
The mists of time
For I'm part of you
We are one part of the same
You are me and I am you
We burn from one single twin flame
So in the dead of the night
As I lie awake
I'll be in your thoughts and in your sight
I gave to you my soul completely
So wherever you go
I will follow meekly
I cant escape no matter how
Destiny is calling
And calling now
There is no sense of space nor time
Clocks don't exist in the hallowed halls
This journey of souls yours and mine
Is destined for ever till the last strands of time
MPB (c)
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"ONE YEAR" has now filtered through to Blackwells. Pretty Please (with begging smile and on knees grovelling lololol!) I hope you will leave a review for me as I have posted excerpts from this book on here
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Bio
About Me
I am an Author/Writer & Poet. Excerpts of my work & books can be viewed on my Webpage. I have a wicked sense of humour lol so watch out! I also have a very sensitive side part of being a psychic/medium, I need to be sensitive to be able to do this work, its a bit of a double edged sword though, I am an experienced senior Lecturer in Holistic Studies (I have a nursing background) Some of the subjects I am qualified to teach are: anatomy & physiology, massage, Reflexolgy, Aromatherapy,Indian Head Massage, Crystal therapy & lots of other therapies including Beauty therapy. And I am also an experienced Reiki master
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WHAT I DO
ONE YEAR
One Year This is my latest book launched this Month and a companion to "A dedication to someone so very special"
This is a Trilogy from "One Year"
A LIMPET
A limpet in a stormy sea
Tossed and weary, she wished you'd see
For as limpets do, she clung on to her love rock
Lashed by vicious tongues in waves of torment she clung on
And thought, if only you could see
What anguish you caused me
For that limpet perhaps to you seemed so insignificant
May be you will, may be you cant
This is the one who loves you so very deep
Who gave away to you her heart to keep
And in its place an empty hole
For like a limpet she clings on tight fast
For when she gave her love it was promised to last
If only the rock to whom she clings
Could hear the song her hurt soul sings
Instead he listens to the beating lashing of the waves
Whose lying tongues, gossip, he craves
One day that limpet will be washed away
And rock will have lost his one true love
Claimed forever by the vicious waves
And when the storm is over and the seas have won
He'll weep forever on his own
A solitary lump of lonely stone
MPB (c)
A LIMPET'S JOURNEY
A limpet shed its sorrowful tears
Comforted in the sun
A crab came by and heard her fears
And told her please don't cry
For when you do the seas grow strong
He smiled as she sighed
Forget the rock he's had his day
Let him play with the cruel sea
He has his lesson to learn, such is the way
Please smile for when you do, your smile lights up the sky
You can no longer help the rock, he'll always make you cry
He should have listened to your song
He should have heard you sing
Leave him now and come with me
Leave him, he's learned nothing
And so the ocean laughed, as the waves did mock
And to his devices they left him a lonely unrepentant rock
Don't look back my limpet, leave him on his own
By mistakes we've learned and thus grown
And as the sun rose high
And brightened up the sky
A rock was destined to weep forever on his own
A stupid solitary lump of of lonely stone
MPB (c)
A ROCK'S JOURNEY
And so the rock was on his own
All cried out and all alone
He lost his only one true love
The gift bestowed from Spirit above
Who, she would have sold her very soul, her own
If only the regrets he would have known
For now she's gone all away
So many regrets he'll have to this day
For only five minutes, he would give
To tell her, without her, he couldn't live
There is a lesson here to be said
Please tell your loved ones, before love's dead
How much you really care
Please tell them with haste or lover beware
One day you might come to realise
It will be over, love's demise
And here like he, you will lie
A solitary rock left to weep and cry
All cried out and all alone
Very much full of regrets and forever on his own
MPB (c)
From "One Year"
A sequel to
A Dedication to Someone So Very Special: A Collection of Poetry
A Dedication to Someone So Very Special: A Collection of Poetry THE FOLLOWING SELECTION IS FROM "A DEDICATION TO SOMEONE SO VERY SPECIAL"
'SOUL'S SONG'
The sweet song my soul sings
Of love and emotion so true
Aches when I think of you
Each waking second that is past
Each moment spent feels like the last
And yet with quiet trepidation
I am flung into this whirlwind
Of doubt and hesitation
But would I go or try
To run, to escape, I think not
For love it gives both pain and pleasure
For all the sorrow that this brings
The joy is multiplied
For one sweet word said from you
Heals my soul and happiness it sings
MPB (c)
A ROSEBUD
Funny how you can be lonely in a crowd
Surrounded all around by people, by friends
And yet there is an unseen wall that divides
Devised for protection I guess
When all the world was cruel
Learning how to survive in a critical world
Had my body, but not my heart and soul
You said to yourself
And brick, by brick you constructed to survive
A fragile heart, so wounded on the other side
A pink rosebud never allowed to bloom
Whose thorns sharp, grew tough and strong
That rosebud never saw the sun shine
Nor felt the warmth bathe its petals
To open its delicate heart or fragrance drift
Imprisoned in the cage of thorns
Thorns imprisoned wounded and bled its heart
So behind the wall there is a fragile bloom
That longs to feel suns golden light
And dance in loves rain
But that rosebud knows no other
A gilded cage of thorns surrounds its heart
A contradiction of fear and protection
She knows not how and begs learn
MPB (c)
DIARY OF A LOVE AFFAIR
Those tender sweet beginings
I called you sweet
You said you no I'm not
And god I thought you were so hot
I couldn't wait for that next mail
With building excitement and trepidation
through this sweet trance I'd sail
We had the silly stupid fights
We'd say the stupidest of things
And then we'd make up all the night
What a sweet rollercoaster
Up and down and all over
Full of passion and crazed raw emotions
Of wanting and needing
God what a commotion
And then one day
You had to say
Words I wasn't familiar with
Not for me I thought
Suspiction rained I ought
To have seen it comming
You said I'd changed
If I had it was not my doing
You seemed so cold I felt it so
You'd cooled so much I know
And then came the days that became so long
Long lonely nights pouring tears into my favourite song
It no longer is I cant bear to hear
It cuts me up and makes me shed a tear
Of passions hot that burning kind
Of passions where you feel you're loosing your mind
And then I knew there was no more excuses
You always promised you would say
if you felt you couldn't stay
It would have been better had it been that way
But no you had to take it all wrong
So now all I have is that song
No more can I listen it cuts me up inside
All because of your stupid damn pride
To admit we all make mistakes
You got it all wrong you made it a mess
All you had to do was answer a yes
And admit it was a stupid fight
And now I cant bear to have you in sight
Not because I am angry or mad
I am just feeling so low and sad
Of silly miscontrued conversations
You got it all wrong why cant you see
You got all the wrong impression from me
And all because of stupid pride
We're both cut up and hurting inside
Maybe one day you'll see what you've lost
The love of a woman who loved you the most
She loved you enough to let you go
She never could hate you for fucking up so
MPB (c)
IN A CROWDED PLACE I WILL KNOW YOU
I daydream of the day when we will meet
The day when I will have that first glance of you
In a crowded place I will know you
As I have known you so many times before
All those lifetimes will be recalled
And precious moments relived
When we are reunited once more
That first tentative look
That first shy smile
Will wipe away all those fears
And time will stand still
As we will recall all those lifetimes
And the passing of the years
And suddenly you will know me
As you once knew and remember that love
That true love we had once more
That electric touch, that shiver, that sudden spark
Will erase all doubts
And all those sweet memories will be recalled
As if just were yesterday as before
Each time before I sleep I pray
Tonight will be that day
When I am reunited my love
When all those years will dissipate and go
God Baby I truly love you so
MPB (c)
TELL ME LOVER
Tell me lover do you dream of me
Do you think of me as I think of you
Do you see things the same way as me
Tell me lover do you write to me
Unsent letters just as I do
Letters written deep from within my heart
Words I write when we are apart
Do you ache for me as I do for you
Tell me lover do you still want me
Just as much as I so want you
Tell me lover do you still crave me so
Do you desire me as much I do for you
Tell me lover are you dreaming now
Am I still there deep inside your head
As you lie asleep inside your warm bed
Let me tell you lover I think I know
I know just how much you love me so
MPB (c)
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